Can't believe it's only been 16 days since "M" & I started dating!...feels like much longer (but definitely not in a bad way). Tonight I meet "M"'s Mum & Step Dad for the first time...& I'm pretty nervous to say the least!...new blouse "check"...not too revealing "check"...Mints "check"...Nails just painted in the office so they aren't chipped making me look like a vagrant "double check"...I really should think about something else :s
...wish me luck!
Tuesday, March 18
Monday, March 17
...thinking out loud.
I'm so confused (am I ever anything else?)
I really want to go into teaching & have the chance to get on to a degree course in October... the only thing is I would have to take time out from work & volunteer at the local school to pass the final interview for the course.
I've been told I'm welcome at the school & work have also agreed the time off, great...you may think?! I'm not so sure it's the way I should be doing things though. True the degree would be the quickest & most direct path into teaching but the time off work, then having to work part time for four years! (remember I've worked pretty much fulltime for the past 6 years) *argh*...if you knew how much I have to pay out monthly you may understand my worries...plus as soon as my parents move I've got to find somewhere to live which equals more expense, & then there is my driving to consider, my theory runs out in November so I've promised myself I'll get my practical passed before then so I'll have lessons to pay for & a car to save for!
I'm considering looking for a permanent job & looking into studying on an evening at the local college instead...maybe :s
I don't know...I just needed to write that out to see if it actually looks as complicated a decision as I'm making it out to be...any input at all would be greatly appreciated..
Dankie :)
I really want to go into teaching & have the chance to get on to a degree course in October... the only thing is I would have to take time out from work & volunteer at the local school to pass the final interview for the course.
I've been told I'm welcome at the school & work have also agreed the time off, great...you may think?! I'm not so sure it's the way I should be doing things though. True the degree would be the quickest & most direct path into teaching but the time off work, then having to work part time for four years! (remember I've worked pretty much fulltime for the past 6 years) *argh*...if you knew how much I have to pay out monthly you may understand my worries...plus as soon as my parents move I've got to find somewhere to live which equals more expense, & then there is my driving to consider, my theory runs out in November so I've promised myself I'll get my practical passed before then so I'll have lessons to pay for & a car to save for!
I'm considering looking for a permanent job & looking into studying on an evening at the local college instead...maybe :s
I don't know...I just needed to write that out to see if it actually looks as complicated a decision as I'm making it out to be...any input at all would be greatly appreciated..
Dankie :)
Friday, March 14
March...
...so far I'm loving this month :)
It couldn't have gotten off to a better start really, Saturday 1st saw me attending the wedding of my best friend "J" & what a fantastic day it was. I was honoured to have been one of her bridesmaids, I ate, drank & danced like an idiot...great!
I had invited "M" along with me, he's was a friend of a friend, I'd known him for quite a few months by then but was still rather shocked that he agreed to accompany me to such an event (I mean why on earth would someone willingly spend the entire day in my company??!...mad man)...I'm very glad he did though. "M" & I had spoken quite often over the last few months & he was the person I knew could always make me laugh however my day had gone. It wasn't until recently though (well when I found out about "A" mainly) that we had become quite good friends.
I'll go into a tad more detail as I've not mentioned "M" in here before....I don't think :op The day that I found out about "A" I was a bit of a mess & "M" was in town so he invited me to join him to take my mind off things....we sauntered around a few estate agents (he's currently looking for a place for his dad....erm & himself) and had tea & toasted tea cake (yes I'm an old woman) nothing particularly exciting but I really enjoyed his company, just having someone I could sit & chat about anything with & not having to care that I looked dreadful from crying all morning was wonderful...& to be honest the whole time we talked "A" didn't really feature in my thoughts at all.
Anyway from then on we saw each other much more often & at the wedding, as I said above I ate, drank & danced like an idiot...& oddly enough felt entirely comfortable doing all of this while "M" was there (poor boy) which I would never normally do in front of someone who didn't know me extremely well...luckily he enjoyed himself too & was a big hit with my friends...which is a first as they normally have allot to say about anyone they see me with (usually with good right ) :s
The day after the Wedding "M" & I went to the cinema (which by that time had become somewhat of a Sunday ritual)...even though we'd seen each other a few times already that week we didn't find it hard to make conversation...I felt so comfortable being around him, so when the question was finally asked ( or rather when he hinted that may like me more than friends so I forced the question out of him...being the bully I am) :op I obviously said I'd love to take the next step & see how things went.
So here I am...it may only be 11/12 day's in but I'm very happy & honestly can't think of anyone I'd rather be spending time with right now...my parents think he's lovely...my brothers idolise him & my friends are all inviting us out...it's great, Slightly nervous that I'm about to meet his Mum on Tuesday though...I'm sure she's lovely so I'm not worried about that....just mainly about what she thinks of me, so fingers crossed everything will go fine :)
Well I'm pretty sure I've bored you enough by now so I'll end the post there...just thought I'd do this little write up to show I don't just come on here to whine & moan (well not all of the time)
...Ciao for now :)
It couldn't have gotten off to a better start really, Saturday 1st saw me attending the wedding of my best friend "J" & what a fantastic day it was. I was honoured to have been one of her bridesmaids, I ate, drank & danced like an idiot...great!
I had invited "M" along with me, he's was a friend of a friend, I'd known him for quite a few months by then but was still rather shocked that he agreed to accompany me to such an event (I mean why on earth would someone willingly spend the entire day in my company??!...mad man)...I'm very glad he did though. "M" & I had spoken quite often over the last few months & he was the person I knew could always make me laugh however my day had gone. It wasn't until recently though (well when I found out about "A" mainly) that we had become quite good friends.
I'll go into a tad more detail as I've not mentioned "M" in here before....I don't think :op The day that I found out about "A" I was a bit of a mess & "M" was in town so he invited me to join him to take my mind off things....we sauntered around a few estate agents (he's currently looking for a place for his dad....erm & himself) and had tea & toasted tea cake (yes I'm an old woman) nothing particularly exciting but I really enjoyed his company, just having someone I could sit & chat about anything with & not having to care that I looked dreadful from crying all morning was wonderful...& to be honest the whole time we talked "A" didn't really feature in my thoughts at all.
Anyway from then on we saw each other much more often & at the wedding, as I said above I ate, drank & danced like an idiot...& oddly enough felt entirely comfortable doing all of this while "M" was there (poor boy) which I would never normally do in front of someone who didn't know me extremely well...luckily he enjoyed himself too & was a big hit with my friends...which is a first as they normally have allot to say about anyone they see me with (usually with good right ) :s
The day after the Wedding "M" & I went to the cinema (which by that time had become somewhat of a Sunday ritual)...even though we'd seen each other a few times already that week we didn't find it hard to make conversation...I felt so comfortable being around him, so when the question was finally asked ( or rather when he hinted that may like me more than friends so I forced the question out of him...being the bully I am) :op I obviously said I'd love to take the next step & see how things went.
So here I am...it may only be 11/12 day's in but I'm very happy & honestly can't think of anyone I'd rather be spending time with right now...my parents think he's lovely...my brothers idolise him & my friends are all inviting us out...it's great, Slightly nervous that I'm about to meet his Mum on Tuesday though...I'm sure she's lovely so I'm not worried about that....just mainly about what she thinks of me, so fingers crossed everything will go fine :)
Well I'm pretty sure I've bored you enough by now so I'll end the post there...just thought I'd do this little write up to show I don't just come on here to whine & moan (well not all of the time)
...Ciao for now :)
Monday, February 25
New Year New Me??
...that's what I was hoping anyway!
Alas I have fallen back into the naieve way's of old *sigh*
I'm at work so this will be brief....I shall go into more detail at a later date.
2008 got off to a great start...I met "A" a little while before Christmas, we were just friends for a while, which was really nice then he decided he liked me a little more than "just friends"...I was very usure about the whole thing...I mean I liked the guy...but not in that way, anyway we decided to see how things went. Before long we were dating, he seemed perfect (maybe too much so)...I'd almost forgotten all the doubts that I had in the beginning, then it happened...not even two months in & I fondout he'd been cheating...& not just with any random girl...nooo that would have been too easy, it was with his best friends ex no less!
Needless to say I was devistated...it's the exact same way my last two relationships ended...well amoungst other things. Not devistated so much that I'd lost him just that I;d been fooled by someone I really trusted AGAIN!...I'm really going to have to give myself a shake...the fortune teller told me 2008 was my year...so far that is not ringing true at all.
Luckily something good has come out of all this...I've actually realised for the first time just how much my friends do care for me...I mean I knew they'd be there...but the way they picked me up & stopped me moping around was amazing....so I guess I really have got allot to be thankful for.
Hope your year's are getting off to a better start...I've decided to start mine again from now...so Happy 2008...I hope it's a good one!!! :)
Alas I have fallen back into the naieve way's of old *sigh*
I'm at work so this will be brief....I shall go into more detail at a later date.
2008 got off to a great start...I met "A" a little while before Christmas, we were just friends for a while, which was really nice then he decided he liked me a little more than "just friends"...I was very usure about the whole thing...I mean I liked the guy...but not in that way, anyway we decided to see how things went. Before long we were dating, he seemed perfect (maybe too much so)...I'd almost forgotten all the doubts that I had in the beginning, then it happened...not even two months in & I fondout he'd been cheating...& not just with any random girl...nooo that would have been too easy, it was with his best friends ex no less!
Needless to say I was devistated...it's the exact same way my last two relationships ended...well amoungst other things. Not devistated so much that I'd lost him just that I;d been fooled by someone I really trusted AGAIN!...I'm really going to have to give myself a shake...the fortune teller told me 2008 was my year...so far that is not ringing true at all.
Luckily something good has come out of all this...I've actually realised for the first time just how much my friends do care for me...I mean I knew they'd be there...but the way they picked me up & stopped me moping around was amazing....so I guess I really have got allot to be thankful for.
Hope your year's are getting off to a better start...I've decided to start mine again from now...so Happy 2008...I hope it's a good one!!! :)
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